Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in STEFFY's LiveJournal:

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Wednesday, September 3rd, 2008
5:02 pm	Hey everyone, after writing (omg, there's a bones ad on the right.  PREMIRE TONIGHT!) in this LJ for... like four years now, i'm retiring it. toiletpaper is totally 7th grade. I have started a new journal, and you should all add it to your friends page RIGHT NOW. everyone_listen  that's it. its from an angels and airwaves lyrics "everyone, everyone will listen" Thanks, Steph. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 2nd, 2008
2:21 pm	my stereo plays songs that i dont hear instead your last words fill my brain as i lay across this bed they run around my head threatening to push me off the edge i still i still i still i cant believe how you could just drop me on my knees in my most crucial time of need Who are you now? Why did you lie to me? Twenty seven weeks we went on strong or at least i did my part you oh you just went along for a ride in my car with my money and you wasted my time (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 1st, 2008
8:31 am	weirdest thing happened this morning. for the past two weeksish i've been dreaming of new neighbors moving in. mostly, they've been moving in in the white house next door, but there have been other dreams where they are in other houses. today i woke up and mom was on the phone. apparently, the people in the yellow house have found a new house, and want to put their house on the market. creepy right? (Comment on this)
Friday, August 29th, 2008
8:56 pm	i had more fun today than i had had in a while. first, i spent more time wandering the halls than in class. then, shay brit and alyssa came over. we watched stick it. we walked to arthurs. i ate. we went back to my house. we read our "i remember..."s. we brought out the laptop and watched demetri martin. we saw a fucking hot air balloon and had this conversation with the passengers: "HEY!" "HI!" "WHERE YOU FROM!?" "DUNNO!" "WHERE YOU GOING!?" "DUNNO!" "GOOD LUCK!" we went inside because of bugs. we looked at fails in the kitchen. alyssa left. we watched the gymnastics fail. my computer failed. shay and brit left. so much fun. (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 28th, 2008
7:37 pm	It could have been like any other night that week just another second place finish just another meaningless smile to be filled with tears at home. Second place, better than most but still not the best. Tables were turned, this was it as the saying goes, now or never. A few tricky moves, and another flashy grin. Flip and stick. It could have been like any other night that week but instead it ended in ecstasy. too obvious the meaning/subject? :P dunno if "ecstasy" is the word i really want to use... but.. that's they best i could think of. probably will change later. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 26th, 2008
7:32 pm	School starts in 12 hours. and we have like, nine months until we're done. can you believe it? this will be out thirteenth consecutive year of education. and then we're done. college isnt required by law... so, those of us going further are just bettering themselves at their own cost. i cant believe that we'll be the next ones in the gym getting our diplomas. its kinda ridiculous. following that note, i'll be eighteen in six months. i can do what i want in six months, and not have consequences. well, legal things. i could get addicted to cigarettes. (i wont i promise) i could get any tattoo or piercing i wanted. (i might) no one can tell me otherwise. downside? legally tried as an adult in court... (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 23rd, 2008
9:25 pm	when i was just a little younger i colored outside the lines i didnt want to be perfect i didnt want to be the same outside the lines was a magical place belonging to me and the others who understand how life really is and how it really is seen outside the lines is an adventurous place where nonfollowers find mystery and in time themselves ----------------- sit around all day wasting time you breathe but do you really live? hours in front of a screen seeing things hearing things but not truly feeling things get off your ass and take a chance. ------------------ life is short, so am i dont get down on yourself go out and party let loose have some fun give people a new side of you three new adjectives me? short, sarcastic, strange and i wouldnt change it for the world (Comment on this)
3:37 pm	all ripped up with nowhere to go dont look up you're already home a sleepy little town awoken with a sudden sound the black sheep is up in flames again rebel turned runaway with one more bang doesnt turn for goodbye ------------------------- ive taken thousands of pictures created hundreds of memories with a shitty litte camera and these beady little eyes dont ever walk away dont ever say goodbye never hold my hand without intent to stay (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, August 22nd, 2008
3:47 pm	specks of your golden hair pepper my pillow and the smell of aftershave lingers within the sheets memories float around in front of my eyes just within my grasp I always wished for this for us to be together time passes in a blink of an eye and soon, we're fighting more and more than i've seen before i am wishing for this to stop in the end i'll remember everything you said (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 20th, 2008
11:04 pm	so, olympics dominate my life right now. and, in honor of them, i've changed my icon to my two favorite members of Team USA. Shawn Johnson (gymnastics) and Michael Phelps (swimming [duh!]) i would also like to thank Verizon Fios for being kickass and having all the olympic events on demand, so i can watch all the competition when ever i want. it took me five times to spell competition correctly. school starts in six days. i was going to crash the frosh dance today. instead, i had a dance party at forever 21 with katelyn and monica for, no lie, two and a half hours. we wore silly outfits and i think all the employees think we're insane. i'm going away to old orchard beach tomorrow until monday. i wanna get one of those "OOB" bumper stickers. real one, not facebook. when i get back, nicki and i are having a huge shopping spree for school shit. there's this sweatshirt i really want. and i'm gonna go get it, bitches. shit, i dont know what i'm going to do for college. (total mood switch here) i thought i had it all figured out, but now that its upon me... i'm feeling so much pressure, and i dont like it. there's only two schools so far that i know i'm applying to. there are things about both that turn me off. and you cant just apply to two. five is a good number. i re did the college board thing, and it gave me thiry five. mom and i will have to go over them. i also need to take the ACTs cuz my SATs blow. hmmmm.... i played tennis with my brother at melican yesterday. for like....nearly two hours. he had me running all over for the ball. (that's what she said? possibly.. if you try to make it work) (there we go... that last one works) and my legs are fucking killing me. (YES PERFECT) (gotta love sexual innuendos) SPELLED THAT RIGHT ON THE FIRST TRY anyways, immaturity aside... i need to stretch. i complained of ass cramps nine times today. they really hurt. okay, i'm gonna go steal more olympic icons to do nothing with. maybe try to work on my Bones fanfic. or maybe sleep. probably not. peace out. Current Mood: lethargic (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 17th, 2008
7:32 pm	shit, could this kid get any better? (Comment on this)
6:21 pm	we're all just small town kids with big city bravado sitting at the edge of summer between adolescence and the rest of our live We talk it all up, like we have no fear That's all it is, is talk All we've known is ice cream shops and long autumn walks trading in our baseball caps and big dreams for laptops and lost hopes Had the same friends since kindergarten Next thing you know, you're spread across the country Roommates and part time jobs occupy your social life leaving no room for those who love you All we've known is ice cream shops and long autumn walks trading in our baseball caps and big dreams for laptops and lost hopes And in ten years time the cycle of suburban life will repeat its course bringing your bouncing baby boys and pretty little girls into the world you used to love All we've known is ice cream shops and long autumn walks trading in our baseball caps and big dreams for laptops and lost hopes (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 16th, 2008
9:01 pm	Paris Hilton, Lindsay Lohan oh shit the TV's broken Now i cant watch the hills maybe i should take some pills like amy winehouse kinda looks like mickey mouse Disney is so fucked up like brittney's twentyfourhour nup- tials JT bringin sexy back Kim Kardashian in the sack Bush hates black people Kanye told all the people Fitty was shot at all the girls think they're fat Brangelina had another baby Madonna wants one too Jamie Lynn had a kid Just like her sister did But this time she was seventeen horray for teenage pregnancy This is the Hollywood that we know and it ain't just another show Girls look up to this Plastic surgery and fake tits okay, i'm gonna cut it off there, but it could go on forever. and i'll probably write more verses later, since who doesnt like tearing celebrities down? yeah, okay, this will definitely have more to come :P (Comment on this)
2:33 am	testing, testing just testing the air make sure its safe to breathe once more. your lies fill me up choke me to tears lack of oxygen mixed with fear and confusion unsightly thoughts cross my mind. deep breaths and counting numbers are the only things that'll calm me now. all it used to take was one look at your face. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
12:20 am	4 AM is such a lonely time half the world asleep the other half too far to reach i sit on the couch alone the fleas nipping at my feet wishing for a friend, but instead i close myself away and write a poem or seven a day my journal screams the toils of my imagined life with made up friends and pretend plots that my character tries to push through like all the other characters of the world 4 AM is such a lonely time a time for reminiscent music a time for indie movie shorts a time for made to be wasted. finished at 2AM, after watching numerous music videos (coldplay, leona lewis, U2, paramore, whitney houston, anna nalick) and watching "house hunting" which proved to be a strange film. OMFG the other day, i was driving to work, and it was raining, and there was this kid walking down the street bobbing his head funny and listening to music. i was like "that's a strange kid" guess who it was. richard joseph. :P (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 6th, 2008
11:25 pm	thousands of blank pages recount our lackluster romance eyes wide with fear and sadness as you fade with the summer light. winter rolls upon us with intent to stay for good my hazy eyes gaze out the frost bitten window nothing to keep me warm dark basements and ripped couches define my life light flickers across the room revealing nothing to keep me warm. (Comment on this)
Monday, August 4th, 2008
9:05 pm	throwing stones down old dirt road hoping the dust that kicks up will show you to me once again. faded jeans and baseball caps turned to the side. pictures blowing in the wind, leaving me with nothing of you. yes? (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 3rd, 2008
11:35 pm	so. postsecret was updated today. and after, i wasnt satisfied. i wanted more. so i went to "paramore secrets" (i know, get a life) and then onto "FBR secrets" (they make me laugh) oh, and btw, i always wanna spell laugh laff. since i was like seven. and i always do it, then backspace that shit up, and type it right. damn. summer's getting a bit boring, what with all this working and shit. school starts in 23 days, mark your calendars. most badass year man, seniors '09! Current Mood: bored (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 2nd, 2008
11:42 pm	so many songs we never played so many feelings we never shared so many times were it could have been lets take a break from the lives we lead take a chance on what could have been what is there to fear? a weekend romance that couldnt get off the ground at least we know what could have been. the reflections of my illusions ripple in my mind; a mirror of a memory floats through empty space. a time has passed where looking back may have been useful but now is no time for reminiscing. now is only the time for "advancing our futures" and "bettering ourselves". i want to live in the now, not the future, not the past. my first boyfriend turned into the moon. no matter where i am, he is there to lighten my night. and when i try to run as far as i can, he rises up to stop me in my tracks with beauty and serenity. he will always be there, even when i cannot see. dont really like that one. posting it anyways :/ the bombs go off all through the night she sits in the kitchen and proudly makes her stand she will not be one to die in vain. before going to bed she kisses her son goodnight as he waits all night for the dawn that never came kinda.. thinking... holocausty for that one... you know? no one approaches rock bottom we crash and hit and burn there's no dainty landing but more of a skid that leaves a scar and from all the way down there it seems impossible to rise again so much pressure from all directions just stand. last line... dunno...? and i dont think its done, i just cant think of anymore for this idea. OMG so like how has you been? Current Mood: frustrated (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 27th, 2008
5:25 pm	so, mumford was a pretty good movie. kinda predictable, but good overall. i saw step brothers today. funniest fucking thing ever. so funny. number two only to superbad. i cant wait to see the house bunny, pineapple express, and yes man (zooey's in it!) this fall is gonna be a good movie fall. HSM3 and i guess twilight and HARRY FUCKING POTTER! so great. i almost wish is was october. i watched the hannah montana movie last night. three times. in a row. i got dizzy every time it was a 3D glasses time, because i never stole the glasses from work.. or bothered to get them at walmart. oh welllll (2 Comments |Comment on this)